I was in my forum at Splitcoast, there is a conversation going based on a sweet mother that is so tired because she was up with her little one in the middle of the night. Bless her - those are long nights. I think someone could easily write a parenting book called "3 am". These days I don't miss 3 am, but I am grateful for 12 am. That is curfew. I am consistently in awe of the comfort the door opening and closing at that hour brings. (typically) I don't worry while Nic is gone, my faith is strong and I stay in a postive state of mind...but I will admit I am always relieved to hear his voice say "I'm home, mom...goodnight."
These days life doesn't slow down. Each time my children leave the house I swear they come back 1 inch taller. Luke arrived home from camp yesterday. The door to Unity opened and in he walked after a week at Bible Camp. He gave me a big hug - and proclaimed the enjoyment of his week looking down at me as he spoke. I stepped back , listening to this tall handsome 13 year old tell of the memories he had made, I fell in love with that moment. I felt so proud. That boy...I adore him.
James has left our home for the week as well. He is full speed ahead, that one. He is not content unless he is movin and groovin. He camps this week with friends, next week with bible camp, and the week after with his family. Dare I think he may appreciate being home after that? It is highly unlikely. Livin it up, that kid is. I won't stop him for a moment though. What a gift to be that in love with livin life. Takes after his Dad. Social. On the move.
Then we have the little one. He still is around keeping his mama company. This may be the very reason I appreciate the Independence of the older boys. Sawyer = 4 children. I never knew 1 small boy could have so many questions, stories and thoughts to share. He never stops talking.
I know that this lifetime really is one moment long. All the memories will be tied up into one simple moment one simple feeling. Love. I am so filled with that emotion I sometimes feel as though my heart may burst. To have been given so many opportunities to love. I can't even believe it! The very best part? It will only get better. I just can't wait!